May your holiday season be filled with joy
January 7th, 2010

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Greetings, It is time for a financial update: As you know, back in January we put out word that we needed financial assistance. The economic recession brought a drop-off in retreat sign-ups and a dip in donations. We began a campaign to ask for regular, monthly donations. We have been very moved by the response. We are now receiving $10,165 in monthly, unrestricted donations for the Zen Monastery Peace Center and $5,908 in unrestricted funds for Living Compassion. At our recent annual board retreat our accounting consultant walked us through some financial reports. Many of us are not used to income statements and balance sheets, and it was grand to be dialed into what some of those reports actually show. The news was good on the whole. Although the monthly contributions do not cover our monthly expenses, thus far in 2009 other donations and income from retreats make up the difference. In fact, income and expense have matched so closely that it could make a person religious—life seems to be providing just what we need. We have also cut costs. We have never lived with “extra” things so there was nothing large to cut out of our budget, although we have saved money through small differences here and there and from one large gift life sent us in the form of donated accounting services. This has been a tremendous savings to us in a time when it was greatly needed. Going through an accounting transition has us still working on our 2008 numbers, but we are aiming to have those public by early fall. They will be up on our website as soon as we are able. So, perhaps we should pause right there and take this in: WE HAVE KEPT THE DOORS OPEN! Together we did it and continue to do it. Congratulations to all of us. Unrestricted monthly donations continue to be the most useful form of support for the organization. It is amazing how everyone pitching in sustains us all. If you are not yet a monthly donor, this may be a good time to look to see what might be possible. We have heard from many people who were being talked out of participating because the voices told them their contribution would not make a difference. It does—a tremendous difference! And, we’ve seen a bonus that we hadn’t anticipated. Monthly donors, as well as others in the Sangha, have been stepping up to participate in our new offerings (email classes, conference calls, workshops available by Skype), giving us a sense of greater connection all over the world. It feels like the whole Sangha is becoming a team. And the greatest gift of all is the joy that comes from working together to make a difference, in our own lives and in the well-being of all. Several people have sent in their experience of becoming a Modo, a term we affectionately assign to monthly donors: “When I became a monthly donor, I was mostly interested in keeping the practice alive and available. I didn’t realize how much it would deepen my participation with so many ways to plug in, be a part of Sangha, and have support for practice. I thought I was doing the giving…but now I see that receiving is also a huge part of being a monthly donor.“ We thank you for all the ways you participate in Living Compassion and the Zen Monastery Peace Center—from Reflective Listening Buddies, to listening to Open Air, to sponsoring a child in Kantolomba, to reading Cheri’s monthly emails, to doing an email class, to coming on retreat, to reading the Voices cartoons, to attending a workshop, to reading the books, to listening to podcasts, to saying kind things to yourself, to coming to the Bridge Walk, to holding a yard sale, to being kind to those around you, to participating in your local sitting group…. Whew! Perhaps you could let us know what we missed! Thank you, thank you, thank you! In lovingkindness, |
This is the MP3 recording of New Direction conference call from March 7, 2009. Click this link to listen to the show: March 7, 2009 New Direction Call
This is the MP3 recording of New Direction conference call from March 6, 2009. Click this link to listen to the show: March 6, 2009 New Direction Call
This is the MP3 recording of New Direction conference call from March 5, 2009. Click this link to listen to the show: March 5, 2009 New Direction Call
This is the MP3 recording of New Direction conference call from March 4, 2009. Click this link to listen to the show: March 4, 2009 New Direction Call
Gasshō,
First, thank you to all who have responded to our communications about Sangha and support. It’s being a lively and lovely conversation, and I hope to hear from many more of you.
We’ve received many ideas and suggestions and cannot respond to each one individually, but we will group them by topic and address each topic in an upcoming conference call. You will receive another email on Monday with the schedule of conference calls and an invitation to join in. These calls will be facilitated by monks and members of the board. They will allow everyone who chooses to hear and be heard about all that’s going on with practice. We will create the most varied schedule we can in an attempt to find a day and time that works for everyone.
A financial update: We have received monthly commitments, thus far, from only one out of forty people who participate in practice. I am optimistic that percentage will change over the next few days. Some who wrote in made suggestions that included lowering our prices and/or more things we can do to generate income. While we certainly welcome all ideas and will carefully consider each, having us do more or receive less is not going to successfully take the place of regular monthly contributions from those benefitting from what we offer.
One such suggestion of “You could ___” was followed by, “There, that’s my cup of palm juice.” Our financial monk said, “That’s the equivalent of going to the King with ideas for how the King could produce more palm juice. It’s fine to suggest, but important to realize it won’t result in a party.”
Someone else got to another place, "Well, I love Cheri’s monthly email and I always print it out and read it and find something in it that is so very helpful just at the right time. But I don’t really practice with you or go on retreats or take email classes, so I never thought I really needed to contribute. Now that I’ve realized how much I have received—and continue to receive—I want to do my part."
The suggestions we are most enthusiastic about are the ones in which you generate the money and offer it to support practice! And there have been some great suggestions: creating an online “marketplace” for selling items and services from Sangha; a tutorial enabling the uninitiated to sell unwanted stuff on E-bay; organizing neighborhood yard sales; hosting a “spa evening;” cooking a dinner for friends as a fundraiser; doing a dessert evening; organizing a walk, run, golf or tennis tournament; tutor people in an area in which you have expertise, to name a few.
Let us hear from you.

Gasshō,
This is the latest in our series of “doing our best to keep everyone informed about everything” communication program. We have just started a There Is Nothing Wrong With You retreat and several key players, including yours truly, are down with colds. Even so, we are opening the conversation designed to answer questions and explore options as we move forward in practice. Below are a few of the responses to my monthly letter and the financial letter you received a day or so ago as a conversation starter:
The first two messages:
“That must have been a difficult decision to cancel the [Living Beyond Karma, Phase 2] class. I haven’t received the next email yet, but I would just like to chime in that the new theme for this second phase, to uncover what is the deepest desire of our hearts, to explore how we live is incongruent from what we value and believe in, is one of the most important issues of our time (on a personal level and a national level…!) I was absolutely thrilled about that idea and am hoping there is a way to incorporate it into your next practice offering.”
“I am confused. Can you please help me understand why the email class was canceled as it seems it would have been another great way to generate income? (And, much needed in these particularly challenging times.)”
We agree wholeheartedly that the theme for the canceled three-month period of Living Beyond Karma (“What is the deepest desire of your heart?” –looking at whether what we say we want jibes with what we do) is the crux of practice, and its exploration couldn’t be more timely. For that reason we will make it the foundation of everything we do over the next year. We canceled because doing a class like that takes so many resources and serves a relatively small number of people. We would like to devote those same resources to serving the greatest number of Sangha, when it is increasingly difficult for people to afford the time and travel to attend retreats. In the past we have been able to offer an ambitious schedule of workshops and retreats which, along with periodic gifts, supported practice. Now workshops and retreats are not filling and those periodic gifts are falling away.
For a good long while enough people have had enough money to be generous in their support of the Zen Monastery Peace Center and Living Compassion, enabling practice to grow and flourish. As a result, since we started the original Zen Center in Mountain View in 1983, we’ve been able to offer many practice opportunities at no cost. Even now there are lots of people who do not contribute financially but receive monthly emails from me, listen to Open Air live and in archives, receive Daily Peace Quotes, and attend sittings and guided practice discussions.
So, rather than offer intensive practice to a few people, we want to ask everyone who receives from practice to support it financially through a monthly contribution, and in return, everyone who chooses to participate will receive the best guidance in practice we have to offer.
Some other Sangha responses:
“Gassho – Your recent email paralleled a discussion I had with myself yesterday while I was driving to work. It was my birthday and I was looking at my life and the angst I am currently feeling in regards to financial matters in my own life. I realized I had been creating a "gated community" inside my own being. My stomach, in particular, was gripping around a sense of survival…the "if I did not hold tight all would be lost" feeling. As I kept still with what I labeled as a deep fear within, I felt what I was doing to my own being by holding so tight. I felt that edge where I wondered at what my own "faith" was in my faith….the edges of my own unwillingness to trust and go with life. Tears arose and I knew that the "gated place" was not the place from which I wanted to respond to life. I felt an outpouring of gratitude for the teachers, friends, sangha who had supported my life in spiritual and emotional ways. I knew I wanted to make a pledge to the Zen Center for a certain amount each month. It would express my gratitude for all that I have been given by the practice, push my buttons on some level, and open the gated community within. It was ultimately a gift to myself. Now today, I read your email and marvel at the timing. I will gladly contribute; and know that it comes from my heart.”
This email exemplifies the kind of deep looking we can do when we have a strong practice to support and sustain us. Without that well-maintained foundation, the voices of “something wrong” and “not enough” can easily overwhelm. Life is big and scary and we’re going to die! We need all the help we can get. That’s why I keep beating on that drum of “holding hands and going through this together.” Together it’s fun and exciting. When we feel alone and on our own, it can be downright terrifying.
“Today I am being ‘extra kind’ to myself as I am so disappointed over the cancellation of the LBK class. That class felt like it was a lifeline for me. On the other hand, this practice and the ‘new direction’ are there and that is where I intend to go 100%. I loved the quote that said something like, ‘sometimes the only means of transportation is a leap of faith’ and it’s in that spirit that I write. The LBK class is cancelled… I fell into the abyss; then the new direction came along and I grabbed the rope and I’m swinging over the abyss. I don’t know where I’m going… I only know that I am most certainly going. Thank goodness for sangha.”
We don’t know where we’re going—that is most assuredly true. But we can know who we are. We can know what we care about, what we want to stand up for. Last weekend, during our Board Best Year Yet retreat, we watched the movie Gandhi. If you haven’t seen it lately I highly recommend that you do so—soon. There are many scenes I find profoundly moving, but I was most struck during this viewing by the one in which the non-violent protesters moved against the salt factory. When you see it you will know what I mean by “that’s who we are called to be.”
When I go about in the world and someone asks me what I do, I’m always a little stumped for a response that is somewhat commensurate with their query. Do I say I am a student and teacher of Zen, that I write books on awareness practice, that I’m part of a group of meditators devoted to peace, that we do service work in Africa….? At that same Board retreat it occurred to me that what we do is “practice what we want for the world.” That’s what we’re called to do now. We know what we want for the world—it’s what we want for ourselves. We want peace, well-being, kindness, courage, a sense of belonging, to feel cared for and loved, to know that each being matters, that we’re in this together, and we will be here for one another. Yes, thank goodness for Sangha.
And, finally, a great idea and suggestion:
“Thank you for this wonderful letter and opportunity. I have received everything from this Practice. It is my life. It is who I am. The best gift I can give is by participating; by showing up and saying, ‘Yes!’ I am very excited about my plan for giving my cup of ‘palm juice.’ I am so happy to donate each month the earnings from the last hour of each week from my regular job to Living Compassion and the Monastery. It’s another way to show up and say yes!”
“What about one and two-day workshops where folks don’t have to take a whole week or more off of work?”
There’s always a way to contribute when we’re looking for one. I like to tell folks “walking barefoot through the snow” stories of my early days in practice. My first priority was to be at the monastery where I trained whenever possible, so I didn’t want to take a regular job that would dictate my schedule. Yet I wanted to be able to support the monastery financially. So I worked in gardens and cleaned houses. There was always plenty to do and my schedule could be flexible. I drew on that experience during the first Living Beyond Karma class, challenging people to find something they enjoyed doing that would generate the cost of the class. Many folks reported great success; for some, life-changing success. We can all do that.
And, yes, we are going to focus more on short workshops. To that end I am offering a one-day workshop at our Zen Center in Palo Alto on March 21 called “Adversity Opportunity.” The cost is “the best donation you can manage now.” It is our plan to create a schedule of these events around the country, presented by monks, senior practitioners, and sitting group leaders, and it’s our hope that Sangha will support these offerings. I will still encourage doing as many longer retreats as often as possible because it takes at least three days for egocentric karmic conditioning’s resistance to fall away, enabling us to experience the gratitude, joy, and peace of presence.
To get the conversation rolling, if you have questions, inspirations, ideas, etc., please send them to emailclasses@livingcompassion.org. This conversation will help us put together the schedule of classes and workshops that will be coming your way. We will take advantage of modern technology, including podcasts, Skype, video conferencing, conference calls, and more. In a recent powwow, the monks and board expressed interest in presenting the following: what the Buddha taught; money as an awareness practice, based on the program Your Money or Your Life; sitting still as a sustainability practice; mentoring, setting and keeping a daily schedule; willingness; a privileged environment; There Is Nothing Wrong coaching calls; There Is Nothing Wrong Book Club; phone guidance; a virtual work retreat; practicing with stress and anxiety; and trust verses fear, to name a few.
Be well and take care.

A note: This is not a quick read, but well worth the time. You may want to make a cup of tea, put your feet up, and take a nice, quiet break.
Dear Sangha,
In these challenging times we know it is critical that we communicate with you about the fiscal health of Living Compassion and the Zen Monastery Peace Center, both to keep you informed and because times like these call for a team effort.
We are, quite suddenly, experiencing the effects of the global economic downturn. The main way we support ourselves financially is by providing workshops and retreats. This year we cancelled a January retreat due to low sign ups. Retreats led by Cheri often have a waiting list and bring in solid income. This year even those retreats are not filling. Of course, this is because so many people have less income and cannot afford registration pledges and travel costs.
Being students and teachers of Zen Awareness Practice, we are always ready for changes life might offer. If we were not able to keep the organizations going, we would be ready to move on and do other things. And, as much as these are difficult times, we sense enormous possibility for creative responses. The world is backed into a corner, and that may be the best place we have ever been. From our perspective, this is “great good fortune.” We can no longer consume in the ways we have. We must now accept the reality of the interconnectedness of all humanity, of all life. It is possible that we will be living in a far more just, compassionate, sustainable, and happy world. We feel that all of us together– everyone reading this email–are potential leaders and mentors in this transition. We are the people who have been practicing for this. We are the people who have trained to let go and allow life to live us. We understand how much richer life is when we let go of “me” and “mine” and join with those around us, with all humanity, with all beings. We receive far more than we could ever imagine.
It is worth a team effort to keep this work available in the world. Few of us have much disposable income anymore. No individual is going to save the organization, and that is wonderful. It is going to take all of us.
As we were talking about the financial situation with our board, one woman related a parable she used to tell in her ministry days:
“The king decided to host a great celebration for the village. He sent his messengers to spread the word. Every kind of food would be provided. All that was asked was that each villager bring one jug of palm juice for the festival.
Ezra and his wife received the invitation. He thought, ‘Surely, there must be some way to go to the festival without having to pay for a jug of palm juice.’ His wife protested, ‘It’s not too much to bring one jug of juice.’ But he said, ‘It would be foolish to pay for something when there must be a way to go for free. I know. I’ll fill my jug with water. With all the juice that others will bring, no one will notice that I am adding only water.’
The day of the festival each family greeted the king, and then was directed to the huge pot where all poured the contents of their jug. Ezra added his contents and then went to join the dancing. When all had arrived, the king ordered the music stopped and the servants to fill everyone’s glass with the sweet juice. Upon taking a sip, a gasp spread through the crowd. In everyone’s glass was not palm juice at all, but water. Everyone had thought, like Ezra, that no one would notice their one jug of water.”
When each of us steps up to do what we can, we can hold hands and make it through this time. Some of us will be able to contribute a cup of palm juice, some a jug, and others a 50-gallon drum. Together we can do it. We can sustain ourselves. Our colleagues in Kantolomba have been wonderful mentors for us. Each person contributes what seems to be an impossibly tiny sum, and yet when enough of those tiny sums are pooled together, there is an amount large enough to pay for something that will sustain the entire community.
Another “parable” (we religious types love parables), this one from modern-day:
“There was once a woman who lived in a very poor village and, indeed, was very poor herself. She cared deeply for her children and did anything she could to ensure they would get an education. She knew giving up was an option. What guarantee, after all, would there be that her children would survive into adulthood in a community where seven in ten children died before age five? And yet she knew in her heart that if they went to school everything was possible.
Someone noticed her eldest son in his local school and saw potential. This stranger was a person of modest means, and a very big heart, who had a little extra income to spare–enough to see this young man through his basic schooling and into seminary. The young man, being grateful for the opportunity, applied himself in his studies. He progressed well and, after being a friar for many years, his Order sent him to Italy. While in Italy he met a woman, a woman with a very big heart, who was open to assisting in the village where the friar grew up. That village is Kantolomba.
And today, 40 years after Mary Kapenda struggled to send her children to school; 35 years after a stranger reached out to pay a boy’s school fees; 5 years after Cheri Huber had a chance meeting in Assisi, Italy, there are nearly 400 children eating in Kantolomba every day. The community now has clean water, there is a medical clinic under construction, and employment opportunities are growing.”
One person can make a huge difference, and each of us is that one person. As a group, we are among the very fortunate few who have a map, a process, for finding our way back to our heart, back to our true nature, in order to be that one person who can make a difference. A quote from Cheri’s recent email:
It’s an excellent time to make a commitment to the shift I’m suggesting. Our new president is encouraging us to do the same. We must put petty selfishness behind us and work together to be the best we can be. That’s another way of saying, “We need to turn our attention away from egocentric karmic conditioning, realize we are not separate, choose interconnectedness, and live together from center.” Good plan!
Below, you will find a plan, an invitation, and some information:
1. An outline of the steps we will take to cut costs and generate new income
2. Our “Keep the Doors Open” plan
3. How to add your Palm Juice
4. A link to our financial statement. We want you to see how donations are spent.
1. HOW WE WILL CUT COSTS AND GENERATE NEW INCOME
We are blessed with a beautiful piece of land, a resource we can benefit from in these lean times. Along with a group of neighbors (it would be impossible to do it on our own!), we are expanding our garden towards the goal of reducing grocery store purchases. We have one enthusiastic person looking into cheese and yoghurt making. When we perfect the art, we promise it as a workshop! We will be going through our budget line-by-line to discover other ways to cut costs.
Each of the monks is looking at ways s/he can generate income, aside from hosting retreats, and each is excited about finding creative ways to use his or her talents to support the organization. You will hear from them as they develop their ideas.
As you have likely read, Cheri is once again offering her time as a one-on-one practice coach and is donating the proceeds to keep the organizations viable.
2. “KEEP THE DOORS OPEN”
Borrowing from the Palm Juice Parable, the best way to keep the Monastery and Living Compassion afloat is for all who are in the Sangha to do his or her part. We are proposing that you make a monthly contribution–of any amount, small, medium, or large. Our objective with this campaign is to generate enough baseline monthly funding to “keep the doors open” and to maintain the day-to-day operations of the organizations. Knowing how much money we can count on each month will help us make sound financial decisions and continue to be the thoughtful stewards of your money we strive to be.
Monthly donors will be entitled to an array of practice opportunities, such as the ones Cheri mentioned in her email yesterday. We will send another email very soon more fully describing these new practices. While we see these as a way of supporting the Sangha, and as a way of expressing our thanks for your financial support, we hope you will join the campaign as a commitment to YOU.
“Open Doors” partners will be the beating heart of the organization, offering this practice to the world, sustaining the Sangha financially and spiritually in this time when we most need Practice and one another. Our goal is the same as always: finding the place that is most compassionate for all.
Please note that your monthly donation will be in addition to donations you make for other things, such as gift cards, Reflective Listening Buddies, or sponsoring a child in Kantolomba. We tell you so you can plan accordingly.
Cheri tells a story of hiking with a friend and his young daughter. About halfway through the hike, when the only route back was the way they came, the daughter began not to feel well. Cheri’s friend picked up his daughter and put her on his shoulders commenting, “It is wonderful when physical fitness pays off in practical ways” And so it is with practice. We have been practicing for this. We are adept at not believing the voices of gloom and doom. Let us all roll up our sleeves and enjoy putting our skills to work.
3. COUNT ME IN
Please note that we don’t want you to contribute to the point where you feel (perhaps even more) financially depleted. We want it to feel exactly right. Finding the monthly amount to give might be the biggest spiritual opportunity of this whole endeavor.
Gasshō,
Jen
Living Compassion and Zen Monastery Peace Center Financial Steward
PS We will keep you updated on our Keep the Doors Open drive.
News from Africa
The Living Compassion team is back in Zambia in January. Read all about it in the blog.
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Theresa with her beautiful smile and one of the Living of the Living Compassion women.
Theresa is coming to the United States!
Most of you know Theresa Kapenda, the Kantolomba Project Coordinator in Zambia for the Africa Vulnerable Children Project (watch her story on video). She is coming to the United States this summer. It is getting closer and closer to reality. An excerpt from her most recent email:
“The good news is that I got my passport and it was so great that i almost screamed when I got it. All this because of Living Compassion, imagine. Thanks guys never in my life have I dreamed that i would get a passport for what? And to go where? Thankyou thankyou!!!!!!!!!! so so so so so so so much from the bottom of my heart.”
The plan is that Theresa and Jen will fly back from Zambia together in late August. They will meet up with Cheri, who is doing a retreat in western Massachusetts. We would like to have as many of you as possible meet this extraordinary human in person. Let us know if you want to help host her in Boston, NYC, Pittsburgh, Philadelphia, DC, North Carolina, Seattle, Los Angeles or anywhere else not yet on the list!
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Visit our Peace Practice Pages
One of the features of our Peace Practices webpages is a monthly opportunity to turn attention to peace in our lives. It can be a guided imagery, a reading, questions upon which to reflect, or perhaps a particular practice to do throughout the month.
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The Evolution of the Meditation Hut
In the beginning days of the Monastery, meditation took place in half of a 32’ X 16’ army tent. In the other half of the tent residents and guests cooked and ate their meals. During the summer months it was too hot to meditate in the tent so wooden platforms were placed outdoors for meditation in what was called “The Meditation Grove.”
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What we now call the Meditation Hut was originally called the Meditation Hall, and it was built in the original Meditation Grove. The first summer, only the floor was built so the floor provided a new, larger, platform for outdoor meditation. When it was finished, the plywood walls were half-walls so that the upper half could be covered with screen to allow air flow and keep out the bugs and mosquitoes during summer. That design required that the upper half of the walls be covered with plastic sheeting each winter to retain the heat from the wood-burning stove. Unfortunately, it also retained any smoke created by the fire.
Years later, when construction on the new rammed earth Monastery building progressed to a point where meditation could be held in the new building, the little Meditation Hut changed its function. It has served as an auxiliary location for meditation, a space for stretching and yoga, overflow housing during large retreats, and most recently has provided additional workshop space, allowing the Monastery to offer two sessions of the There Is Nothing Wrong With You retreat at the same time.
Last month the little Meditation Hut was given new life. A local contractor donated some windows to the Monastery and those windows went into the window openings in the Meditation Hut. After receiving its first real windows, the exterior was painted dark chocolate brown, like the rest of the buildings on the property. The little Meditation Hut looks and functions better than ever before!
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The meditation hut under construction and the finished product.
Solar Power at the Monastery
In October, we completed two projects to improve our solar power system at the Monastery. We added six panels to increase our generating capacity, something we have needed in order to keep up with expanding demand. We built wooden racks on which to mount the panels at the correct angle to the sun. These racks have wheels, enabling us to rotate the panels over the course of the day to follow the light. We still do not have all the power we need to supply our kitchen, dormitory, meditation hall, shop, and several offices, but this has been a successful first step.
In November, we experienced a major failure in our solar system just five days before a full There Is Nothing Wrong With You retreat. One of our two inverters (the machine that converts the DC electricity generated by the solar panels into the AC electricity that our appliances use) malfunctioned suddenly and left half of the Monastery without power. For several days the monks scrambled during the day to find a replacement in time for the retreat and ate their supper by candlelight at night. A new inverter would have cost us more than we can afford, but we managed to find a used one in the nick of time. The retreat started on Saturday afternoon at 3:00. After a two-day adventure full of wires, voltmeters, electrical tape and other interesting things, finally at 1:00 p.m. on Saturday, we finished the new installation and turned on our new inverter. It worked! Never have we been more grateful for the power that brings so much ease to our lives, or to the monk ingenuity that makes it possible.
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The new solar panels and the monk’s solar flashlights hanging nearby.
Join the Revolution, tell us your onething, watch other’s onethings on video, find out more….
Help us spread the revolution in January!
January – Kick-off month – Tell your friends and help us share the Onething Revolution!
January 17 – Film “I’m gonnas…..” out in the world as you go about your day.
January 18 – Film “I’m gonnas…..” with family and friends.
January 31 – Your films will be posted on the web. Please send your videos by January 31.
In Lovingkindness,
Zen Monastery Peace Center
and Living Compassion